You can’t always get what you want
You can’t always get what you want
But if you try sometimes you just might find
You just might find
You get what you need
This song has been running through my head this morning. I often find myself humming a tune in the shower…my thinking space. Sometimes the songs stay in there, but other times they stick with me as I’m getting around, making lunch, feeding Max. And then I stop to wonder, “Why in the world am I singing this song?”.
If it’s an annoying song stuck in my head, I’ll either play music to push it out, or the sure fire way to rid one song stuck in my head. I’ll sing another, equally catching song, like the song from the Irn Bru Snowman advert: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xfiqrkV_ZqI. It works EVERY TIME!
But today, as I was belting out that old Stone’s song, I stopped to wonder, why this song? I don’t listen to the Stone’s, in fact I had to google the lyrics to see who actually sang that song. But still, it keeps ringing over and over. You can’t always get what you want, but if you try sometimes, you might just find, you get what you need.
I think my train of thought started with the realization that nearly a year ago our lives went on a journey. We started on an adventure…off towards what we wanted. We sold our house, which we wanted to do. And then we moved all our belongings to England…which we REALLY wanted. But then, what we wanted started to get in the way of what we needed. We had to make difficult decisions. In fact, they were quite straight forward decisions. But difficult to admit.
We didn’t want to move back to the States. We didn’t want to live here. Once we got back, we tried to work our desires back into the equation and moved to California. Which worked out horribly for our son, who needed much more care than the medical teams could offer him in California. So, nearly a year later, we sit where we started. We came back in July, and bought the same model car we sold while moving to England. We searched until we found just the right house, less than a mile from our old house. My son got back in with all of the medical professionals he was working with before we left.
This year we have definitely not gotten what we wanted…but as it turns out…we did get exactly what we needed. We have been provided for in amazing ways. Ways that I can’t even wrap my head around sometimes. And while I don’t always understand the logic we’ve followed this past year, I know every decision has been the best decision for us. For now, I’m trying to not focus on what I want. It seems that’s not been the best thing for me this year. Instead, I’m trying to focus on what we need. And then, seeing over and over, that’s exactly what has been making me happy. All my needs have been met. I am healthy, my family is healthy. We are happy, and cared for.
I think it’s important to dream of wants, and desires. But it’s equally important, if not more so, to focus on the needs, rather than taking for granted that all our needs will be met if we just work at the wants in our lives.
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